Saturday, May 30, 2009

咸鱼可以翻身吗?




一个被誉为大马罗文的歌星, 黑社会老大然后毒品专家,今天,他传讲福音... 引人信主, 咸鱼真的可以翻身 ?



海山年轻的时候曾与多位香港多名著名的电视演员和歌手如周润发,余天等一起同台演出。当时,他已经很红。前途本来很好,但在那复杂的圈子里,他误入歧途并加入黑社会。在里面打混多年更糟糕的染上毒瘾。为了满足毒瘾,最后学会了偷,抢,打劫......

家人为了救他,报警逮捕他,最终,被判入狱八年。

在1986年,他在监狱里接触到福音。但很多的疑问通不过理性的逻辑,一直到1989年约11月期间,在单纯的祷告中经历了神的真实。由那时候起,决志接受耶稣基督成为个人的救主。

之后,生命完全改变。海山开始勤读圣经,并以圣经的教导成为做事准则。在福音戒毒中心,接受各种各样的课程训练。

在福音戒毒中心期间曾被安排带领小组聚会,并分享与教书。神学院里带领敬拜赞美和参加「宣教布道队」到不同的教会去服事及布道。

在2008他终于完成马来西亚圣经学院神学文凭。

成为一名基督徒后,他的生命充满着色彩. 上帝赐给他一个很有才华的妻子和他一起配搭。一个可以打1000,两个可以打10,000。

今天的他已经是一名著名的福音歌手。他常常被邀请到许多教会的见证会分享。他的经历和分享导致很多人掉眼泪。许多人信主。上帝可以用一个世人认为无药可救的毒犯成为他人的祝福。

在上帝的眼中,咸鱼真的可以翻身。。。




今天他常常用上帝赐给他洪亮威武的歌声赞美神。同时他开始靠灵感写诗歌..... 相信不久的将来,我们可以看到他的唱片哦!


以下是他在一个街边布道会里的演唱。。。大马罗文-何海山









Tuesday, May 12, 2009

YOU ARE LOVED SO LOVE BACK
A young man learns what's most important in life from the guy next door.
It had been some time since Jack had seen the old man. College, girls, career, and life itself got in the way.
In fact, Jack moved clear across the country in pursuit of his dreams. There, in the rush of his busy life, Jack had little time to think about the past and often no time to spend with
his wife and son. He was working on his future, and nothing could stop him.

Over the phone, his mother told him, 'Mr. Belser died last night. The funeral is Wednesday.' Memories flashed through his mind like an old newsreel as he sat quietly remembering his childhood days.

'Jack, did you hear me?'
'Oh sorry, Mom. Yes, I heard you. It's been so long since I thought of him. I'm sorry, but I honestly thought he died years ago,' Jack said.

'Well, he didn't forget you. Every time I saw him he'd ask how you were doing. He'd reminisce about the many days you spent over 'his side of the fence' as he put it,' Mom told him.

'I loved that old house he lived in,' Jack said.
'You know, Jack, after your father died, Mr. Belser stepped in to make sure you had a man's influence in your life,' she said.

'He's the one who taught me carpentry,' he said. 'I wouldn't be in this business if it weren't for him. He
spent a lot of time teaching me things he thought were important...
Mom, I'll be there for the funeral,' Jack said.
As busy as he was, he kept his word. Jack caught the next flight to his hometown.
Mr. Belser's funeral was small and uneventful. He had no children of his own, and most of his relatives had passed away.
The night before he had to return home, Jack and his Mom stopped by to see the old house next door one more time.
Standing in the doorway, Jack paused for a moment. It was like crossing over into another dimension,
a leap through space and time... The house was exactly as he remembered.
Every step held memories. Every picture, every piece of furniture... Jack stopped suddenly.

'What's wrong, Jack?' his Mom asked.
'The box is gone,' he said.
'What box?' Mom asked.
'There was a small gold box that he kept locked on top of his desk.I must have asked him a thousand times what was inside... All he'd ever tell me was 'the thing I
value most,' Jack said. It was gone.
Everything about the house was exactly how Jack remembered it, except for the box. He figured someone from the Belser family had taken it.
'Now I'll never know what was so valuable to him,'Jack said. 'I better get some sleep. I have an early flight home, Mom.'

It had been about two weeks since Mr. Belser died. Returning home from work one day, Jack discovered a note in his mailbox. 'Signature required on a
package. No one at home. Please stop by the main post office within the next three days,' the note read.

Early the next day Jack retrieved the package. The small box was old and looked like it had been mailed a hundred years ago. The handwriting was difficult to read, but the return address caught his attention. 'Mr. Harold Belser' it read.

Jack took the box out to his car and ripped open the package. There inside was the gold box and an envelope. Jack's hands shook as he read the note inside.
'Upon my death, please forward this box and its contents to Jack Bennett. It's the thing I
valued most in my life.'
A small key was taped to the letter. His heart racing, as tears filling his eyes!
Jack carefully unlocked the box. There inside he found a beautiful gold pocket watch. Running his fingers slowly over the finely etched casing,
he unlatched the cover. Inside he found these words engraved: 'Jack, thanks for your time! - Harold Belser.'
'The thing he valued most was..my time.'

Jack held the watch for a few minutes then called his office and cleared his appointments for the next two days. 'Why?' Janet, his assistant asked.
'I need some time to spend with my son,' he said. 'Oh, by the way, Janet..thanks for your time!'

'Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take but by the moments that take our breath away,'

Think about this...you may not realize it, but it's 100% true.

1. At least 2 people in this world love you so much that they would die for you.
2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.
3. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.
4. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.
5. You mean the world to someone.
6. If not for you, someone may not be living.
7. You are special and unique.
8. When you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you probably won't get it, but if you trust God to do what's best and wait on His time, sooner or later, you will get it or something better.
9. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good can still come from it.
10. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look; you most likely turned your back on the world.
11. Someone that you don't even
know exist, loves you.
12. Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about the rude remarks.
13. Always tell someone how you feel about them; you will feel much better when they know and you'll both be happy.
14. If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they are great.

Monday, May 11, 2009

Experiencing God's love in my marriage
(The English version of my testimony)

I come from a very traditional Christian family. Both my parents are active church members and all of our siblings attended Sunday school at a very young age. We were asked to memorize bible verses through out our Sunday school era.

In 1998, I got married to a man whom I believed it was the right man from God. We lived happily though we were not rich. We struggled for years to make our life by setting up a preschool in Klang. My husband always said: “This school is the promise land from God”. Within few years, it was well known and we even had a branch. Our student numbers reached a hundred.

I gave birth to two precious children within 5 years. Both children are blessings from God.

In our complacency, we started to be cold with God. Though we were still going to church every Sunday, our hearts and commitment were way out from God. We were only paying lip service.

At the end of 2004, my husband changed. He was always out at night till midnight and turned off his hand phone. His actions made me suspicious. One night before he slept, he told me that he only treated me as his business partner and not his wife. He has never loved me before. My heart sank and from there, I started to have sleepless nights. I was so insecure and always cried in pain.

Before long, he moved out from our house and slept in his office. I suggested marriage counseling in order to remedy our marriage. However it didn’t work. One day, I found a lot of sms in his handphone from a woman whom I also knew. My world collapsed. I didn’t know what was to be my future? I was so puzzled. All my dreams were gone instantly. Truly I was in tears every day and night.

My counselor told me to fix my eyes on Jesus. Only He can bring me through this crisis. But practically how should I turn my eyes to Jesus? Did it mean looking at Jesus’s photo day and night? Yeah, I might look at His photo but my mind was attacked by lots of negative thoughts. My husband betrayed me even though I loved him so much.

One day in March 2005, my husband took me to his good lawyer friend's office to have lunch with him. It was a trap. He asked his lawyer friend to prepare a divorce agreement by consent for me to sign. I didn’t sign and left the place in tears. That day, I drove my car aimlessly for hours. Where should I go? Through out my marriage, most of my friends are my husband’s friends too. I dared not even see them because I didn’t want more gossips about my marriage. Deep in my heart, I wanted to save this marriage because I have made a vow before God to love this man till death do us part.

God sent me a prayer warrior in May 2005. She had been praying with me every moment I was down. She taught me to memorize bible verses and internalize the verse in my heart. She brought me to a very caring church. In almost all our church service especially during worship time, I wept and wept. God started to heal my whole being.

In July 2005, my husband moved out from our home with our daughter. I was not informed at all. My mother in law sometimes would bring back Pearson to sleep with me at night in our house. Sometimes, I was home alone.

I shared my condition with my counselor. She suggested for me to pray for direction and tried to apply for custody of these two children. At the same time, I prayed for the opportunity to take back the two children and to look after them myself.

One evening, God told me to sms my husband to request to see my daughter whom I had been separated from for nearly a month. Initially my husband was reluctant to let me meet up with her. After few requests, he consented. I took this opportunity to take Phoebe and also Pearson back to my home town that very day because this was my only choice to have them beside me. We stayed in my home town for 10 weeks. During these 10 weeks stay, I always encouraged them to call their father and invited him to join us. At the same time, I prepared them with lots of prayers and Bible words. I thank God for these three months for me to share with them my full love and my value of keeping this marriage.

I flew back from home town with the two children in Oct 2005. Without difficulties, the judge in KL Court granted me my children’s custody. Every alternate weekend, the two children will be back with their father. I was happy with this arrangement because I truly believed the children need to receive love from both parents.

In Feb and Apr 2006, my husband violated the law by not returning the children to me after his time with them. He asked my daughter to call me and tell me that she wanted to stay with her daddy. I filed contempt in court.

The hearing was fixed in May 2006. The judge interviewed the children. They were screaming and shouting in the judge’s office. My girl wanted to stay with daddy but my boy wanted to stay with me. But both of them also wanted to be together. The judge intended to split up the custody of these two children. My girl will follow daddy and my boy to follow me. During that very crucial moment, I stopped her because I felt God told me to let go. A story about King Solomon with the two servant girls fighting for a baby boy came vividly into my mind. Solomon asked the child to be cut into half. The real mother decided to let go as she loved him so much she couldn’t bear him to be hurt. Solomon then gave the child to his real mother. I can’t afford to separate my two precious children from each other’s company. They are the victims of my marriage. I decided to give away my custody but I requested to have alternate weekend access to the two children. This decision was not made easily because I might risk not seeing them for life as advised by my lawyer.

Sad to say that from May 06 onwards, the two children did not spend time with me as per the court order. My husband deliberately taught them to call me and tell me that they were too busy with their school work, tuition, dance class, speech and drama class and lots of other activities. Thus they can’t spare any weekend time with me.

How can I forgive a man who has betrayed me and also taken away my children from me?

With God, everything is possible. I told God I don’t know how to forgive a man like my husband. Please help me to forgive him the way Jesus forgave the one whom betrayed Him and even crucified Him. Amazingly, the moment I made this prayer in my heart, God gradually removed the hurt and pain in my heart especially towards my husband and even his family members. Now, I can sleep well and eat well. Everybody says I look younger than before.

Though I lost everything including my home, my family, my children and my career, I knew very well that my God had never deserted me. Now, nothing in our life is permanent and unchangeable. Only God is faithful, He has never changed. From young till now, He has always been with me. His love for me is everlasting. Every moment I cry to Him, He is there to comfort me. My God is my only source of strength and hope for the future.

I truly give thanks to my parents for letting me know God in my very young age. They build me up in God’s word all throughout my childhood life. These bible verses brought life to me in my difficult times especially PS 23. The Lord is my Shepherd, I shall not be in want. Truly, I have never been lacking anything in my life. God has sent right people in the right time in my life to encourage me, to help me and to pray for me. Though I have lost one of my beloved, I have gained lots of love from my own family members including my parents who have supported me in prayer and in finances, my two sisters and my brother and his wife and so many extended family in the many brothers and sisters in Christ. They have fought my battle together with me. I am showered with lots of affirmation, loving gifts and hugs.

On 30 Nov 2007, I went back to court for contempt against my husband because of deliberately influencing my children to not spend time with me. Under normal circumstances, it is impossible to prove him guilty and I have no way of seeing my children again. The judge instructed to interview the two children at 4pm on that day. This is a new judge who had just started working for a few months. Lots of prayers have been sent out to pastors and cell leaders and ministry leaders. Everybody stood in the gap to pray with me at that time. Some of them even fasted with me together.

The judge interviewed the children at 4pm. Both children insisted that they didn’t want mummy because mummy would hide them in Sarawak and they would never see their father again. The two children inherited lots of anger and hatred against me. The moment they saw me, they screamed and shouted again. The judge got a shock to see their reaction towards me. She put them in a playroom and let me spend some time with them. My boy cooled down to entertain me. My girl was very skeptical. Eventually, my lawyers managed to persuade the judge to let the children stay with me for the school holidays. Praise the Lord, the judge agreed.

The moment the judge informed the two children of her decision, my girl screamed in front of the judge. She showed no respect for the judge and took up her hand phone and called her father. The judge started to doubt her decision. She asked me to stay out and she wanted to talk to my husband personally. My heart sank again. My mouth kept saying;”Help me God, only You God can help me… please Lord help me…” After interviewing my husband, the judge called the lawyers from both parties to enter her room for the final order. I stayed outside. My heart cried for God’s help. If I failed again, I would have an even slimmer chance of seeing my children again.

After much discussion, Yang Arif firmly announced to everybody that the two children have to follow their mother for a one month holiday irregardless of their cries. They were considered under aged and as such had no right to make their own decision. She even instructed my husband and his lawyer to leave the court room immediately. Praise God for preparing a firm judge for the hearing.

What should I say? I knew I have won this battle because my God has fought this battle for me. He is faithful to the one He loves. He loves me from beginning till now. He loves everyone who stood beside praying and crying with me too.

I have spent quality time with my children in that one month holiday. Later, the judge made another order for me to spend time with my children every weekend once school reopens.

What seems impossible to man is possible to God. He is God. Nothing is too difficult to HIM. As long as we put our trust to Him, He will never fail us.

Life is constant challenging... The battle is over. Restoration of relationship, rebuilding the trust that has lost between both of us... All these are only possible only when we humble ourselves to forgive one and another... it is not easy but with prayer, I believe it will be done. Amen.

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

Together we serve the Lord

A special presentation by SIBKL Youth and Children

during 2008 Father's day celebration

Father, mother, brother, sister

Together we serve the Lord

我最敬佩的爸妈


(全家福摄于弟弟的婚礼)



我的爸爸是一名公务员。40年前,他每个月只领RM180薪水。妈妈是一名书记。家里非常的穷。
当我七岁那年,政府派爸爸到印尼边界上班。当时,我的妈妈每天以泪洗脸。她认为如果我们姐弟们在那山芭地方成长,我们很难可以读进好的学校,那我们姐弟们的前途就很不被看好。因此,爸妈决定离开铁饭碗,自己创一翻事业-保险。
1980年,爸爸,妈妈带了我和姐姐,妹妹和弟弟来到了民都鲁。那时,民都鲁只是个鱼村。爸爸和妈妈俩人为了让孩子们有更好的生活环境,他们誓决要同心合一的为我们建立一个舒适的家。
爸爸,妈妈终于成功的供我们四姐弟在国外完成大学课程。妈妈常说如果不是因为我们,他们早就是百万富翁。哈哈!
爸爸妈妈拥有太多值得我学习的地方。他们对神的信靠和爱,对每个孩子的了解和教导,对家里上下每个人的关怀,对邻舍的照顾,刻苦耐劳,不曾向失败低头,节俭但不吝啬….太多太多
爸爸妈妈成为我生命中学习的最好的榜样。
爸爸,妈妈,你们是孩子们的骄傲。
谢谢你们。


Wednesday, April 1, 2009

上帝是信实的

我来自一个很传统基督化家庭.爸爸和妈妈都是教会里活跃的信徒.我和我的姐姐,弟弟和妹妹们从小都参加主日学. 在主日学里,我们学习背诵圣经节. 

 在我25岁那年,我结婚了.经过多方祷告我肯定我所要嫁的丈夫是神为我而预备的.婚后虽然我们经济不稳定但我们还过的蛮幸福的.不久我们设立了一间托儿所.我的丈夫常常说:“这是神赐给我们的应许之地.”过了几年, 我们的托儿所开始著名了. 我们也有了分校. 学生近百位. 

 不久,我生了两个宝贝。我认为这两个是神赐给我最宝贝的礼物. 当我们的生活环境渐渐舒适的时候,我们与神的关系开始疏远了.虽然每个星期日都有参加崇拜但我非常清楚知道我个人的属灵生命已经渐渐跌入了低谷. 

 不久,我的丈夫突然转变. 他每晚很迟才回来. 手机也联络不到他. 这一切令我起了疑心.有一晚他甚至对我说他不曾爱过我. 我只可以成为他很好的生意伙伴. 我同时也发觉他的手机储存了很多另一个女人很暧昧的短息. 我的心碎了.每晚我都失眠. 我提议一起去见婚姻辅导专家. 辅导后,这专家最后跟我讲了一些话 :你一定要定睛仰望耶稣.当时听了,我不明白她的意思? 难道每天看耶稣的照片吗? 虽然我可以眼睛看耶稣的照片但我的头脑也一直想着我所有的问题,为什么我的丈夫背叛我??? 

 有一天我的丈夫约我和他的律师好友一起吃午餐.其实这是一个陷阱.他已准备好了一份离婚协议书,要我签. 我不肯签.流着眼泪我痛心离开了. 我该这么办? 我该往何处去哭? 我没有可诉说的对象? 我的朋友也是他的朋友.我不想让他们知道. 我的家人离我很远. 我也不要爸妈为我痛心. 我的内心不断跟自己讲我一定要救这段婚姻因为我曾在神面前立约爱我的丈夫至死不渝.我不要违约. 

 就在最痛苦的时候,上帝派了一位属灵的妈妈给我.每当我的心情低落时她都会为我祷告无论当时是否已三更半夜了. 她教我把一些可以帮我的圣经节背下来然后用圣经节祷告. 她也带我参加她的教会的崇拜. 每一次当我在敬拜赞美神时,我就无法控制得不停的哭.上帝在我身上开始他内在医治的工作. 

 在过几个月,我的丈夫带着我们的女儿在没有通知我之下搬家了.有时我的家婆会带我的儿子回来和我过夜. 但大多数时间我独自一人在家但我仍默默忍受不大吵大闹.过了一个月后我把我的境况跟教会的家庭牧师讲. 她为我祷告求神给我智慧来走下去. 最后我们决定把孩子带回来申请他们的扶养权. 但我应如何看到孩子呢? 因为我已差不多一个月没有真正和孩子相处了. 经过祷告好,我写短信给老公.我要求见孩子.开始他不答应. 经我不断要求,最终他让我和女儿通电话. 感谢神. 女儿愿意和我逛街. 我也不断祷告希望我也可以带儿子出去. 起先, 家婆反对让我带我的儿子因为她担心我有可能带他们离家出走.但当天我的儿子不断哭闹要我陪他玩. 家婆最后同意让儿子和我们一起逛街. 我的心很痛. 自己的孩子不能自己照顾 甚至连想看到他们都要过几关. 

我没有什么亲戚在西马. 我很清楚知道如果我要继续让孩子留在我身边, 我这次一定要回我的老家. 但那时已经是下午十二时30 分了. 而飞往家乡的飞机在二点30分起飞. 来的及吗? 许许多多的人不断为我祷告希望我可以离开. 很感谢神,我们所搭的航班竟然延迟一个小时. 最终,我带了两个宝贝两手空空的离开了吉隆坡回乡了. 这是我的人生出埃及的经历啊! 

 在家10个星期多,我每天花时间教导两个宝贝如何祷告, 如何明白妈妈的想法和教导. 我也鼓励他们不时打电话给爸爸邀请他来和我们相聚.这段时间是我和孩子最亲近的时刻了.但我非常明白身为一位妈妈我不可以自私的让孩子永远留在我身边,而失去他们的爸爸. 为了让孩子拥有爸爸的爱,我带了两个宝贝回吉隆坡面对吉隆坡法院孩子扶养权的听审. 我赢了. 孩子扶养权归我. 而爸爸可以在每个月的两个周末带孩子回他家小住两天. 我很满意这个安排因为我可以每天好好照顾孩子也让孩子可以看到爸爸. 

 但事实并不是我想象的这么简单! 我的丈夫为了让孩子常常留在他的身边,他和他的家人不断说服孩子不要回来和我住. 就这样,我的两个宝贝被我的丈夫收藏了.我上庭投诉. 当年法庭听审我的案件. 法官接见两位小孩.两位小孩在法庭上又哭又喊. 大女儿坚决要跟爸爸而小儿子希望跟我回家.但他们俩不愿姐弟分开. 在挣扎中法官有意分开两个孩子的扶养权. 当时我深深感受到上帝叫我放掉. 在我的脑海里浮现了圣经中所罗门王时代两个侍女争小孩的故事. 小孩的真正妈妈为了孩子的生命选择放弃争取. 我不再多想就亲口向法官说我愿意放弃孩子扶养权. 我不能忍心看到孩子们分开. 我也不要看到孩子心灵焦脆. 我唯有一个要求就是让我可以在周末和孩子相处. 我身边的人非常反对我的决定因为他们认为我可能永远失去孩子. 真的就像他们的预料, 我从那天起,我再也没有真正见过我的孩子.每次我打电话给孩子希望可以带他们回来. 我都被拒绝了. 孩子都说他们很忙有很多功课, 补习, 跳舞班和 其他班. 她没时间给我了. 孩子甚至对我越来越没礼貌了. 我应该这样原谅一个背叛我和把我的宝贝带走的丈夫? 

 圣经教导我们要原谅那些得罪我们的人并爱人如己. 经过这么多伤痛我实在不知道该怎样原谅我的丈夫. 牧师曾讲过原谅人是我们一种选择. 只要我们选择原谅人, 上帝会怜悯帮我们. 我跪下祷告求神帮我学习去原谅这我的生命中伤我最深的人就好像主耶稣原谅那些出卖他并把他钉十字架的人. 很奇妙, 就当我愿意做这个祷告的时候, 上帝慢慢挪去我的丈夫在我心中所建立的伤害和心痛. 现在, 我再也没有失眠和厌食了.我身边的每个人都认为我年轻了许多. 

虽然我在过去几年失去了我的家,我的孩子, 我的事业, 但神没有舍弃我. 神是信实的.他永不改变.从小到大每当我向神放声大哭,他必做我个人的安慰. 我的神是我的力量和盼望. 我很感谢我的父母从小让我认识上帝,要我努力学习上帝的话语. 在我迷茫困难时这些经节成为我的安慰.诗篇23:1 耶和哗是我的牧者,我必不致缺乏. 真的,我生命中没有任何缺乏. 上帝在不同时候派不同的人来鼓励,安慰我以及为我祷告. 虽然我得不到丈夫和孩子的爱,但我却因此从爸爸妈妈姐姐妹妹和弟弟弟媳教会里的弟兄姐妹得到数不尽的爱护和拥抱. 他们与我一起打这场战. 

 一年半很快就过去了。经过不断祷告我深感上帝指示我再一次上庭投诉我的丈夫不曾遵守法律的规定让我有机会和孩子相处. 在还没上庭之前, 我曾请教了全吉隆坡最出名的家庭法律顾问.她对我这次上庭的结果很不乐观. 几乎认为我根本没有胜数. 但我深深相信在人不能的在神凡事都能.如果今天全能的神帮我,没有不可能的事. 

在当天许许多多的牧者,教会领袖,同工们一起为我站在破口不断的为我祷告. 有的甚至也和我一起禁食, 求上帝改变世人认为不可能的事实. 当天下午四时一名刚刚上任的新女法官接见两位孩子.孩子在法官面前不断喊叫坚持不要妈妈因为他们认为妈妈会把他们藏在砂劳越从此不会见到爸爸了. 两位孩子很怕及很恨妈妈. 法官对两个孩子的表现很惊讶,为什么孩子会如此怕妈妈? 法官要我在玩具室里和孩子玩,希望可以改善我和孩子的关系. 在玩具室里, 我的儿子开始对我改观但女儿却很敌对我. 虽然如此, 我的两位代表律师不断恳求法官让孩子和我有更多的相处时间. 法官决定给我一个月时间好好的与孩子相处. 可是当法官向孩子们宣布她的决定的时候,两位孩子在法官面前大喊大叫甚至拿起手机拨电命令爸爸进法官的办工室带他们回家. 法官开始怀疑她刚刚的决定. 她下令我离开她的办工室. 然后, 她要接见我的丈夫和孩子. 我的心沉了. 我的嘴不断向神祷告, 神啊,如果你不帮我, 没有人能帮我了. 过了不久, 法官又再接见了俩方律师. 我的心不断向神哭泣,今天如果我又失败将来我要见孩子的机会就更少了. 我求你 神不要掩面不看孩子迫切的祷告. 感谢神, 法官最终怜悯我. 在众人前宣布孩子今天一定要跟妈妈回家无论他们怎样哭闹. 这么小的孩子不应该为自己做决定. 她也命令爸爸马上离开法庭. 我很清楚知道我这次的胜利全归荣耀给神. 他爱他的孩子.他是信实的. 他可以改变一切不可能的. 在一个月里,我和孩子们再一次建立了我们的关系. 学校开学后, 法官又下旨要孩子每个星期周末都和我渡过. 哗! 上帝不曾让我们失望. 往往是我们怀疑他的能力. 

 现在,每个星期的周末我都机会和孩子相处。我们的关系越来越好了。 更奇妙的是我和我前夫的关系是从朋友变情侣然后结为夫妻。但从夫妻,我们竟然变成敌人。经过了这些风波,我们终于可以彼此平心静气的聊天。这是奇迹。 爱里没有惧怕和怨恨,只有饶恕,饶恕,饶恕。